school?

so.  it's been awhile, hasn't it?
last time i wrote, i was at home in california.
now i'm at home in washington, dc.
i feel like it still hasn't really hit me that this is home, now.
i still feel like a tourist, and when i was walking back in from my military science class in the carbarn, and i came in through healy gates, i just felt completely awestruck again that this is real.
it seems like a lot of people take this place for granted.  and i'm sure there are kids here for whom this was a safety school, kids who wanted to spend these years at harvard or yale, and just see this as a default school, much the way i would have felt about UCLA or Berkeley (no offense to my 700 friends who go there), but this was my dream and even though i LIVE here now, it's not home yet.
haha, look at this, me, the girl who couldn't WAIT to get away, and who wanted to go as far as possible.
i'm not homesick.
i don't find myself staring longingly at the pictures that literally cover my walls, nor constantly calling all of my friends.
but i do wonder what it would be like if i had stayed at home and gone to UCLA, or any other school with a whole pack of people i've known for a long time.
it's way soon to be making these kinds of judgments, but i have the free time,  so that's what i do.
i have all the freedom i want here.
i could leave right now and run around outside all night (or at least until 0510 when i have to meet my rotc mentor and another cadet to walk to our first lab) or go out to LuLu's with the rest of my floor, or eat ice cream and watch movies until the sun comes up, but i still for whatever reason feel more constrained.  because i just met all these new people, and its going to take me awhile to loosen up.
my floor already thinks i'm anti-social.
i'm not at all anti-social.  ask any of my friends back home.
but i'm not overly social either. at least not 2 days into the school  year, on a thursday night when i have to wake up at 510 the next morning.
i haven't really gotten much sleep since last friday, so that makes it almost a week without a full night's sleep.  mid school-year, that's no problem at all.  while i'm still in summer mode, that presents a bit more of an issue.  first full day of classes today?  ha.  well all the professors did pretty much was pass out syllabi, and the only class where we really got any kind of a lecture, econ, i had to pee like a racehorse, so that was my main concern.  besides, apparently i do remember a thing or 2 from aronson.  opportunity cost, anyone?  the only freaking thing we learned all year, goodness.

tomorrow should be good, though, minus the morning garbage.  i think after that i'll just get breakfast, and then come back and do some of my reading and nap all day, or at least until the homies (yes, all, like 3 of them that i have here so far) get out of class, and then we can chill.  i have a lot of reading to do, actually, but it's a 3-day weekend, so whateverz.  let the procrastination begin!

peace, y'all.